February 2012
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2/4
things are going back to normal and that is all i really wanted. i have never needed life to be perfect, but when it feels manageable i’m more than relieved. surrounded by people i love and respect, on a clear path towards graduation, spring is on it’s way slowly but surely. it’s the small things keeping me going and the good people on my side who make the days easier to get...
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2/1/12
i miss the peace of december. january turned everything inside out. never can quite tell what february will hold. i really just want things to be easier and less sad and maybe a little normal dare i say the word. but i think my problem is asking and expecting too much, so maybe i will just cross my fingers, jump in, and hope like hell i don’t drown.
January 2012
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evander: title fight
“Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are...”
– Sylvia Plath (via roscoe-)
the conclusion is built into the beginning
4 day weekends.
dancing on counter tops. NDM. hijacking whiskey. new friends, old friends, and best friends. all day bed chillers. four loko chasers. singalongs. plenty of giggling. running in the rain. cookout in the car. 5AM bedtimes. family visits. disposable camera photo shoots. jumping on the bed. new babes. making a mess. family visits. best friend sushi reunion. remembering what it feels like to be happy,...
“You want a job, a vacation, heath insurance, validation, a back rub, a scalp...”
– Ryan O’Connell (What 20-Somethings Want)
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1/19
it’s funny who appears out of nowhere to help figure this whole life thing out when you didn’t realize you needed it, or anyone for that matter. it’s the acquaintances who continue to surprise me. they come out of left field to mend things. all the lead characters tend to walk out of my life. it’s the supporting roles that make the deep impact, they stick around and pop in...
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“I wrote the story myself. It’s about a girl who lost her reputation and never...”
– Mae West
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tomorrow
is my last first day of school, and the start of my last semester of college. cannot believe it is finally here, it is one of those days that felt like it would never come. it has all gone by so quickly, strange to be at the beginning of the end. so much is going to change within the next year it is hard to fathom. i am mustering up some hope that good things are on the horizon.
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truth.
it just boggles my mind and weighs on my heart that i do not feel like i meet honest people. no one can say what they mean and no one means what they say and everything is half truths and white lies. tell me anything as long as it is the truth. hurt my feelings, break my heart, blow my mind i do not care i just want to know the truth. my mind is a weapon on it’s own. i break myself down from...
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Trying to tour this summer.
jeremyrva:
If you’re in a band, or know someone that is hit me up. I’ll do merch, photography, live video, and panhandling.
Ashalaine.tumblr.com will come too.
We are an unstoppable duo and will make you look cool and make you money. Take us places with you.
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“You cannot run away from a weakness; you must sometimes fight it out or perish....”
– Robert Lewis Stevenson
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“It’s always the party you didn’t plan on going to that you have the best time...”
– Erin Foster (Single Girl’s Guide)
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leaving
it might be all in my head but when push comes to shove the idea of committing to anything feels debilitating. i do not belong anywhere. nothing feels right, not even my heart in my chest seems like it belongs. loneliness is a tricky thing it floods your chest cavity when you least expect like new year’s eve across the country from almost everyone you love or when you are desperately trying...
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new year's resolutions
if i don’t have anything nice to say i will not be saying it at all
lose weight/develop healthier habits before moving to california, better diet/more exercise
travel to another country
make the move
work on loving myself and seeking validation through positive avenues rather than negative
graduate from college
have an amazing last spring break
make the best of my last few months in...
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December 2011
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everything is alright- motion city soundtrack
2011 in reflection
january was spent flexing my independence. i learned to stand up for myself and left my first stable job for the sake of my sanity. i spent the rest of the month in hibernation. i spent new year’s working, being confrontational, and hanging out with jeremy, who became my best friend this year, so i guess that is right.
february things got ridiculous. i let my best friend morghann move in...
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“I love Los Angeles. I know a lot of people go there and they see just a huge...”
– David Lynch, Catching The Big Fish (via bbook)
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12/27
i feel more at home at the airport than just about anywhere else. something is comfortable about the strangers rushing to get from place to place and the extreme nature of emotions that fluctuate throughout. tears over leaving, excitement over adventuring elsewhere, shear terror on the idea of stepping on a plane. i found myself this year on plane after plane and i realized that this is what i...
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yule shoot your eye out- fall out boy
Watchtothdavideric:
Budapest Timelapse 2012
amazing, so thankful i got to go here this year. one of my three favorite cities i went to in 2011.
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12/21
it isn’t easy coming to grips with the fact that the world still turns for everyone else when you aren’t around. sitting in my room i lived in through high school that is now decorated with justin bieber posters, teal blankets, and the life of my little sister, knowing that someone else is growing up day by day where you used to call home. i left my family and went to college one day...