January 2009
61 posts
1/29
i put all of my thought into one thing at a time. i throw everything i have into something and just hope for the best. that tends to bring me down when something i wanted so badly doesn’t work out. i don’t know i think maybe i need to focus more on the big picture than on the little parts. just a thought.
“Sometimes its not weakness when you forgive people who have hurt you. Sometimes...”
– Christopher Guiterrez
1/28
the rain puts me in a weird state of mind. so much of my mood is dependent on the weather and the temperature outside. it is the main reason i went to school in SC. bad weather follows me like the plague so i should’ve probably just moved to arizona and the entire country would’ve stood awestruck as it rained and was colder than thought to be environmentally possible. i’m just a...
“I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than...”
– Brittany Renee
i've decided...
i want to be one of the people who never has to regret the things they didn’t do. i know that looking back there are places in my life that i could have done better, and times i could’ve been better. been a better friend, daughter, person, but i know that for every time i have faltered i have learned, and grown, and have developed into a better person. the world is a place full of...
thought of the day
there are
6,706,993,152
people in the world.
there are certain things that fall under the umbrella of the general human experience, but as people our lives are most certainly our own. we each go through our struggles and we each find times in which we can excel, but one common experience that you can find a signifcant number of people touched by is a song. music is written to satisfy a need...
“I wanna write down all the things you say
I wanna have you in you my life today...”
– Farewell
well you said you wanted more, but nobody wants to...
i am not sure it will ever be possible for me to be apart of an us. i’m tired of thinking about it though. they come with a reputation. all of them have. i put my hand out knowing that they’re that guy or at least that they have been. but i will never be that girl and they always go in knowing that. i feel as if i spend my life thinking i joined a game of gold fish and end up in a...
1/23/08
I got my sternum pierced. Badass? I think so. :) Team WTF FTW
“Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we...”
– Brother David Steindl-Rast
sometimes it only takes...
one small thing to turn it all around. some sing star. a few good people. a really outlandish compliment, a smile from the cute boy in the row in front of you, an upcoming date, the weekend, unseasonably warm weather, singing at the top of your lungs, winning, talking to you, some ben and jerry’s, one classes on friday’s, being overqualified, laughing till you cry, just sometimes a few...
“and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
im...”
– Jesse Lacey
1/21
i know that i made the right choice i just don’t know when i’m going to see it come into fruition. i have faith that everything is going to be alright i’m just not sure when it finally will feel that way. my life feels like a book of what if’s. what if i made the wrong choice? what if you are that guy? what if it was never meant to be? what if i’m wasting my time?...
“Where there is no wise guidance, the nation falls, but in the multitude of...”
– Proverbs 11:14
1/20/09
Today was a new beginning for our nation. I am proud to be part of the change that is in store for America. We are on our way to big and better things and I believe that Barack Obama is the man to lead us towards our next step as a country. God Bless America, God Bless Americans, and God Bless the change in store.
oh hey dream man where are thee?
So several weeks ago some friends and I thought it would be interesting to see if I could nail down my taste in men. Welp this proved as a hilarious challenge seeing as I have no taste! Surprise, surprise, well not at all for those who actually know me but that’s besides the point. Here is what I could come up with give or take a few the list eventually will round itself out into my dream...
“At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person....”
– Albert Schweitzer
joy
one of my favorite feelings in the world is just sitting or standing alone or in a silent group of people and realizing that i am genuinely content enough to break a smile. when my heart feels full and the whole mess that usually surrounds me fades out for a bit and i can withdraw and just realize that i am such a lucky person. i have things to look forward to, i continue to fulfill my lifelong...
first weekend
getting down with the get down in RVA. stoked to be here and with good friends. this weekend has epic written all over so sunday or monday will hopefully have a solid update in store. my fingers are crossed and my hopes are high so hopefully i can change my mood!
so i fall to my knees
Because I have come to the conclusion I can not win. I have lost sight of the few things that make me happy, the people, the goals, the year. I need to make a change and I need to find the peace that I started this year with. I have wasted too much time, energy, and tears on things that will never prove positive. This is not worth it. It never was. Peace will come with time, my heart will settle...
I LOVE CHEESY MUSIC!
I will shout it from the top of buildings sometimes I enjoy amazing cheesy pop music. THEREFORE for my own record I’m going to post a few, maybe a bunch of my favorite cheesy music. Get down to it!
college
easy mac. how i met you mother. shafer. dorm hangs. naked roommates. apartment meeting. late nights. smiling faces. pretty boys. 5 hours of sleep. early classes. naps all day. ignoring phone calls. getting over it. learning who i am. “i like your glasses”. my little secrets. so many bicycles. befriending. refriending. strangers. happy place. city life. reality tv marathons. mac...
“It is entirely possible to consistently have the best year of your life.”
– Christopher Gutierrez
i never wanted to say this...
You never wanted to stay I put my faith in you, so much faith And then you just threw it away You threw it away I’m not so naive My sorry eyes can see The way you fight shy Of almost everything Well, if you give up You’ll get what you deserve
God Bless Hayley Williams because girl knows how to put how I feel a lot better than me. I don’t really enjoy girl musicians which seems...
RVA
Today was my first full day in Richmond and I am so content being here. I’m finally letting go of things that have tied me down to the past and I can’t imagine feeling any better about it. The people in my life presently are the ones who need to be there. This break was about loving myself and the life I have built around me. I am surrounded by amazing people 95% of the time and in the...
basically
it’s the last day of winter break and tomorrow i’m in store for one of the biggest changes of my life. i am unnecessarily mopey, this break has been one of the best months i’ve ever had. i wish i didn’t care, but i think i always will.
“You’re my life now.”
– Edward Cullen
eclipse
maybe i’m just caught up in this whole twilight ordeal but it has genuinely made me feel like settling is not an option. plus me and anything that resembles robert pattinson would make the most beautiful coven. this blog was silly but i’m in a goofy, needing to be swept off my feet sort of mood. i’ve recently come to realize though i don’t need a man in my life it sure...
the new is in i'm feeling better already
cities at night make me feel electric. i can’t wait live here full time. orientation is tomorrow hopefully it will make me feel encouraged. not much to add today the nerves have the best of me as usual. i have a feeling this weekend is going to be one for the books hopefully i’m not wrong.
“The future has several names. For the weak, it is the impossible. For the...”
– Victor Hugo
submit to the positive
I started this blog ranting, backtracked and decided today I’m letting it go, so instead i’m posting pictures of things that are currently making me happy this week.
“I no doubt deserved my enemies, but I don’t believe I deserved my friends.”
– Walt Whitman
