January 2010
62 posts
December 2009
79 posts
january 1, 2009 i wrote
1/1/09
“A vow is defined as, a solemn promise, pledge, or personal commitment. So that’s what I’ve decided this year. To make a New Year’s vow as opposed to a resolution. This year is going to hopefully be one which leads me closer to Christ, guides me to being a better sister, daughter, and friend, and is another year which I can continue to work towards educational and career...
12/30
i hate being alone but lately everything i do is a conscious effort to disappear. wake up, shower, work, sleep, repeat. i have stopped going out of my way to contact anyone. the gap is widening between me and the people i was closest to. yesterday i told someone i stopped caring sometime along the line and they asked why. i said because i was sick of putting every ounce of my being into...
“i never had a chemistry with normal, healthy souls, the best and greatest people...”
– (via desirnoir) (via acidfields) (via thingsgohazy)
“no more resolutions. just change.”
– postsecret
so thankful
i had the loveliest christmas. i got to spend time with my entire family and got to see my best friend. i got everything i asked for while being surrounded by the people i love. i am so grateful for having a family who puts food on the table and a home over my head and to have a happy and healthy family and friends. merry christmas everyone hope it was wonderful.
formspring me! →
“ho-ho-hopefully this holiday will make us believe that we’re exactly where...”
– the maine: ho-ho-hopefully
“but everybody’s gone and i’ve been here for too long to face this on...”
– blink 182
today was christmas eve
and i still cannot believe christmas is tomorrow. hope all of your holidays are merry and bright and that you are surrounded with as much love and comfort as i am. happy holidays everyone.
district sleeps alone tonight: the postal service
...
so i guess the lost boys do grow up?
then:
now:
rufio, you my friend turned into a babe
“say nighty night and kiss me, just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss...”
– ella fitzgerald
as much as i dislike my job
all i want to do is make enough money to go somewhere warm for spring break/my birthday.
pink sand beach for my 20th birthday?
pretty please with sugar on top.
we accept the love with think we deserve
and i don’t think i deserve any. you could call me broken.
gumption
noun: informal-
courage; spunk; guts.
courage, spunk, guts? precisely how i want myself described. i want to have the courage to stand up for things i believe in and to work towards my goals. i want to have spunk and to be a presence in the world. i want to have guts i want to do what i want because it is right for me without considering consequences endlessly. i want to live my life in a way...
“and it’s been a long december and there’s reason to believe that...”
– a long december-counting crows
“sex makes things complicated. even when you aren’t having it not having it...”
– the holiday
my idea of a perfect day is
cozied up on the couch at my mom’s house with my family watching romantic comedies and sitting by the fire next to the christmas tree while the snow comes down.
blizzard 2009 about 20+ inches into the storm and going strong. i probably should not love it as much as i do but i would be happy being stuck in here for the rest of break without any contact with the outside world. this is...
i haven't been myself lately
the end of the semester really got to me or maybe i finally started getting to myself. things are finally sorting themselves out or at least i hope they do. work, spend time with family, sleep. it keeps me grounded. six days till christmas it doesn’t even make sense to me that the holiday has come around again so quickly. i started this blog january 1st 2009 and it’s almost been a year...
“you want me to act like we’ve never kissed, you want to forget; pretend we’ve...”
– patsy cline
this week has been rough
i have terrible anxiety so finals are usually impossible for me. if i don’t do super amazing in the class i am usually fucked because as far as finals go i know 9 times out of 10 sheerly due to anxiety i will get an F even when i study. i hate so much that how nervous i get affects everything i do including school. i just hope i don’t fail anything honestly i can’t do that to...
tired & uninspired- my american heart RIP
...
“you said the words in my mouth were more alive than i was. i guess i don’t...”
– title fight (via secretsoftheworld)
